{"id":235,"date":"2010-08-09T19:19:44","date_gmt":"2010-08-09T18:19:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.pender.org.uk\/?p=235"},"modified":"2011-08-26T11:45:58","modified_gmt":"2011-08-26T10:45:58","slug":"altar-ego","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/pender.org.uk\/index.php\/2010\/08\/altar-ego\/","title":{"rendered":"Altar ego"},"content":{"rendered":"

But when you pray, go away by yourself, shut the door behind you, and pray to your Father in private. Then your Father, who sees everything, will reward you. (Matthew 6:6)
<\/span>Holy Bible, New Living Translation
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There is no doubt about it, we are complex beings. It is a delight to know that we are all different, physically, emotionally, mentally. I am sure there are many people who are overjoyed that they are not like me, and I have to say that the feeling is probably reciprocal! But we are even more complex than that, because I know for one that I am even different from myself at times.<\/p>\n

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I am not what you think!<\/p><\/div>\n

Eh? What?<\/p>\n

Well, I am. I have an alter ego<\/strong><\/em>, another me. I have quite a few of them, actually, but – at the risk of getting really complicated and carrying this too far – I am sure I am not alone!<\/p>\n

There is an outside me<\/em>, and an inside me<\/em>, for instance. The person that people see is not the whole me, it is just the outside me<\/em>, the me that I want people to see, the me who smiles and is glad to see everyone. Then there is the inside me, <\/em>the me that wants to be alone. There is the good Christian me, <\/em>but then there is the bad sinner me <\/em> – I won’t elaborate on that one, you can do it! There is the thinking me<\/em> and the speaking me – <\/em>on a very few occasions these two actually coincide!<\/p>\n

There is a me<\/em> that perhaps even I don’t see, because there are parts of me I don’t want to see, or am too blind to see.<\/p>\n

But the Father sees them. He sees all the types of me<\/em>, he knows them and yet he still loves me!<\/p>\n

Why do I try to hide so much of me from you, from the people around me, even from myself? Even worse, why do I try to hide me <\/em>from the Father, my creator, my lover? Why do I so often go before him with my alter ego, the not me<\/em>? I have to go to him with my altar <\/strong>ego<\/em>, the one which is honest and true, the one which is neither concerned with what others might think, nor of what he might think, the me that my Father knows.<\/p>\n

Then he will reward me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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